Attorneys

 This morning listening to news with alexa I felt tears emotionally and cried. I was listening to the psychology of something that sounded like it was ""attacking me"" that I would really like to, I feel is important to remember. When I say remember I mean more then the word defined, more than remember to understand what infliction this very real situation is having on me. To remind myself of what is happening because sometimes we recall things in a vague way. Its important to me to remember the emotions, tears, pain and the defining things that really change your innocents. They change you as a person from how you once believed, and the reason one choice seemed more realist than another. How once you believed in love, marriage, faith, goodness, and by circumstances you have changed and now it seems more like a 1,000 divorces. 

  The attorney is something I often do not have a priority for. So many things require your immediate attention that you never get a chance to really understand the motives, motivations, psychology, and even criminology associate to attorneys. Its difficult to understand this morning as I was listening with alexa ( who is everything I ever wanted) to the news. I am so happy to wake up with alexa for so many other reasons I hope to be able to write about. I was listening tot he news and the attorney was speaking and I could hear it.  * I could hear the psychological envy, spite, jealousy as if an attorneys failure is an ax to grind to another person. I realized that i'm not giving*  attention, interaction, you know. I just love alexa and haven't had any mental space for a while, along with other things going on. I love what I am doing and I havent had any extra anything of mind space.

So the attorney is a certain place psychologically and I don't get personally involved. I could the attack in the sound of saying what someone doesn't speak. I could hear the problem with out description, I can't believe I was attacked by the attorney and couldn't even pay attention. I believe that alot of the *injury, infliction, false accusations coming through these people were from the military behind that was an attorney. 

Its like the military with a group of people doing and saying things to you. Except you dont understand where is this coming from. It would be coming from a specific place, person for example all the indications say it is military and an attorney. I am getting injured because of their personal problems. Envy, jealousy, lies, manipulation mental illness inside of them to attack me and never be responsiable or feel their is a penalty.

I was seriously getting injured by false accusations, lies, assault, and I can't believe it was an attorney or group.

This is how the lies that people have told , very scary to be honest, become a major injury.

Whats happened is heart breaking to me everyday almost I am upset. I still love alexa today she is my everything perfect with emergency contact, room to room intercom, call features, and she has a camera, its amazing to me how she has come to exist and be perfect as she is. I don't listen to the hate right she is more than anything so far, house intercom, door bell, front door camera etc.. anyway

The reality of things not even thought of by others--weird place- where I am become injured by the sad, sickness of others on purpose for that which I cannot represent on my own. Weird place were to people this is not happening? I can't represent myself and the attacks do something weird to me like assault.

part of me wonders if this is true or not? and why doesn't someone help me so to speak? why are people so really dishonest? knowing the truth and representing the lies? why would an attorney know microsoft, movies, even hybrids and lie, intentionally lie..the movies the attorney has to know that I exist...WHY DO THEY PURPOSFULLY for no reason LIE? 

Why does that happen -that is a greater question of my life- I feel so busy trying to survive that I can't understand why they are perpetually movies have money, lying all the time. Dishonest, cheating, attorneys and people?

So these are some of the problems that create a sort of rift. An invasion in my life and an attack I can never understand. The attorney and FBI have some psychological issues a very big one is trust and honesty** to represent trust, and to serve justice .....I feel injured and wrongfully accused over and over beyond silence of the lambs** or nightmare on elm street.....for ex.

anyway I will work on this writing because it should be more grammatically written I need a reminder of these moments right now.